Witches, evil queens, good wives + lion cubs,
I know I go back to December all the time — but this time, we’re doing it to close out my public delusion era.
Writing has always helped me process the world around me. I spot patterns and turn them into stories to make meaning of my inner world. Sometimes I write them down. Sometimes they loop in my head for years. Most of the time, they keep me up at night.
When I first showed up in your inbox this winter, I was caught in stories that no longer felt like mine. I couldn’t trace where they started or how I got so deep inside them — I just knew I was ready to leave. So, I did. I quit a decade-long career, let go of the people who needed me to perform for love, and moved into my mother’s basement to heal.
With no role models left to follow, I turned to the one place that always felt safe: music. And somewhere in the sound, a pattern began to rise. I didn’t know what it meant yet, but I stayed with it — writing down what I noticed, track by track.
By my sixth essay, I still hadn’t solved anything, but I’d discovered enough to chart a path forward. The Freefall became my personal blueprint for crashing out in order to begin again. It was messy. It was magical. And, as it turns out, it was a proven psychological framework first charted by Dr. Carl Jung.
Welcome Back to Summah Camp!
A weekly storytelling series about rewriting our lives through pattern recognition and mythmaking. If you’re new, start with the syllabus then choose your own adventure.
I’m the Mahvelous Ms. B — former teacher, current human. I’ll be your tour guide this season as we journey through the deep end together.
This week’s episode is a double feature: Remembering & Making Glitter. Let’s dive in. ⬇️⬇️⬇️
The Great Remembering
Dr. Carl Jung was a Swiss psychiatrist who founded analytical psychology, a framework for understanding the unconscious mind and the deeper architecture of the self.
At the center of his work is the concept of the collective unconscious, a layer of the psyche shaped by patterns inherited through culture, ancestry, and history. These patterns influence how we see ourselves and how we make sense of the world — often without realizing it.
Over time, we adopt roles we think will keep us safe, loved, or accepted — and eventually, we forget we’re even performing. Jung called these roles archetypes, inherited storylines embedded so deeply they feel like identity. But they’re only part of the story. His work invites us to examine these roles, so we can decide what to carry forward and what to leave behind.
Sound familiar?
Go Insane, Go Insane, Throw Some Glitter, Make It Rain!
Jung believed the goal was to integrate our archetypes and to hold each with curiosity and care. He called that process individuation — the ongoing work of becoming whole by weaving together the fragmented parts of the psyche.
He didn’t figure this out by staying in control — he figured it out by falling apart. In his late thirties, Jung unraveled. From the outside, it looked like a breakdown, but behind the scenes, he started to create. He filled notebooks with images, colors, and symbols that no one else could make sense of.
The result was The Red Book, a mythic and deeply personal record of descent and return. It wasn’t published until decades after his death, but it offered a quiet kind of blueprint. He showed us what can happen when we turn inward, follow what rises, and let the pieces lead us someplace new.
When I stepped into freefall, I didn’t know any of this. I only knew I couldn’t keep performing. So, I wrote to process. I danced to feel. I painted to stay grounded. I followed the patterns and tried to make sense of it all by turning my experience into something I could hold.
Unlike Jung, I didn’t wait until the end to make it public. I let it unfold in real time and in full color. Not for attention, but to show it’s okay to come undone while proving this to myself:
When you move with self-trust and long-term vision, it’s not delusion — it’s design. And it’s how magic is made.
Where We Go from Here
After all that falling, I’ve finally landed. Summah Camp will carry on, but in a new rhythm.
Two key changes are coming in August:
The Newsletter will shift focus from my personal healing journey to the magical world of Celtic mythology. I plan to share the stories that helped me remember who I am. My hope is that they’ll inspire you to explore your own stories — the ones that reveal your roots, expand your inner world, and remind you of who you’ve always been.
Daily Instagram stories are ending, but the plot isn’t. I’m entering my poetry era with a new series called Revisionist History, rewriting the endings of stories I’ve been telling in my notebooks for twenty years.
As always, take what resonates and leave the rest. See you next Saturday!
<3 The Mahvelous Ms. B
PS. Click here for this week’s mixtape. It’s the emotional arc of my freefall and it ends like this —
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